starring ME take 1

I sit in silent contemplation

reflecting on what my heart is feeling and has been feeling

I enjoy these moments of calm

time taken to look inside, to feel, to inquire within

to know of no disruptions

the sounds of the day living outside is no bother

it enhances my quiet space protected by the walls of our home

this time brings peace and some much needed tranquility

that a wife and mother of two can never have too much of

how trying the juggling act can be

a real test of nerve and will on a daily, even hourly basis

the day to day happenings are taking me through

but I have been quite disconnected from who I truly am

caught in a cycle focused on all those things that are exhausting my spirit

I want to move past ALL of the frustration and aggravation

I will take the opinions I do not see as truth as learning

for I am not 'that' though I am 'this'

my truth is what's real

I want my power back but actually I want my power that I have yet to know

I have my struggles

those that have been with me longer than some of my oldest friends

they still effect me 

I am ready to move past these mountains

I feel like I know why they are here and I know what caused them

now let me climb that mountain and be done with it

from the top I will fly

soar with my true spirit being the air that empowers my flight